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Ugh!!! I am so sick of myself, that I don’t even know what to do. I will do great on a diet and be positive and self-motivating and for no reason, I will quit!! I joined this site one year ago this month and I am 3 pounds heavier than when I started!

I can’t live in the past, but I am really getting tired of being over weight! People are starting to give me weight loss tips without me asking for it. 90 days ago one of my co-workers wanted to start walking with me on my breaks. We started off doing about 30 minutes a day and now we are up to 45 minutes a day. We take the stairs (we work on the 3rd floor), and I drink much more water than before. People say they see the difference, but the scale says otherwise.

I’m not asking to be a size 2. I just want to be one of those people that everyone is asking “how in the hell did you do it?”. That place seems so far away…*sigh*

And I have gained weight. I am now 18 pounds heavier than the last time I weighed in here. No, I am not proud of that and no, I will not let that get me down. I am here now and I am doing something about it.

A coworker and I signed a 60 day contract to walk together on our breaks (a total of 30 mins per day) and drink at least 64 oz of water a day. We  are on day 37 and we are doing great! I am not sure how much I weighed before we started, but I know that I feel a lot better and I have noticed a changed  in my body as well as my skin.

My man and I are starting Monday on a 40 pound weight loss challenge (he thinks he can beat me…yeah right!…lol). I’m going to start incorporating healthy eating and I am going to take the twins with me when I need to work out at the gym. I just learned that my kids are old enough to go to the daycare there. There is also a beautiful scenery with a lake in my neighborhood, so I will start walking with the twins in the evenings.

I think I may even start the Weight Watchers program again. It was beneficial and very easy to follow. We will see.

Walk in your own light….

So, this is something that I have believed in for a while. We can be the authors of our own horoscope…no need to look for the answers because they are within us. If we look deep into the caves and ditches and cracks, we can definitely find the key to the many doors that we want open for ourselves. We have to speak those things that are not, as though they are. If you continue to tell youself that you are fat, obese, overweight, out of shape, then your mind and body will obey you, believe what you say and it becomes manifest…right before our eyes. I’m telling you…once you get your mind right, which is the beacon to our entire selves…the body will follow. So today, I challenge you to speak kind words to yourself. Yes, it is true, there are some things in life that are not in our control, but the majority of it is. So think happy, healthy thoughts today.

Now..don’t take that title as a negative thing. I say that because I just had an epiphany…I was destined to be fat up until December of 2010. The reason is that if I had been skinny all through elementary, junior high, high school, and college….I would not set high goals, I would not have a bucket list, I would not have the willpower, I would not be appreciative, I would not stop and smell the roses, I would not be sensitive to others’ downfalls. I would not be the me that I visualize during this journey. I LOVE her! She is caring, fun, outgoing, loving, confident, optimistic, thoughtful, courageous, helpful, giving, sensitive, grateful, wise, healthy, she is unlimited. She believes that she can do ANYTHING and take on ANY challenge that life throws at her. She teaches her children to eat and live healthy lives. You all know that losing weight is the ultimate challenge that we face. We are completely transforming our bodies, minds, and lives…I wish I could convey it the way that I see it in my mind. It feels like I am on an antidepressant and a light came on that said, “LIVE, HONEY, LIVE!!!”. It’s feels like I had a brush with death and it opened my eyes to how precious life is. I choose to enjoy every breath. Perhaps it’s the endorphines rolling over from lastnight’s workout, or maybe the many positive words of encouragement that this site brings, maybe it’s the fact that I know for sure that this year is MINE!

Hey I need a workout partner. Someone who is motivated, upbeat (not too exhausting…lol), knows about fitness, and lives in the Sacramento area and can work with my hectic schedule. Hopefully I can find someone…

Wow! I was thinking that I would be about a pound lighter, but to see my accomplishment was amazing! And to get an applaus for my progress felt really good! I suggest Weight Watchers to everyone struggling. It will help you in so many ways. The first day I attended, I went grocery shopping. I make sure that I do not eat out and when I do it is within my points range. I also make sure it is worth it. For the most part my meal are made at home and I eat A LOT! The difference is what I am eating. I eat breakfast, lunch and dinner with healthy snacks in between. I feel less hungry and I do  not deprive myself. If I want an oreo cookie, I will have it as long as I am sure to write it down and deduct points. Okay, so this week’s challenge is to find time to workout at the gym for an hour each day…

Weigh in is tomorrow for my first week of Weight Watchers. This week has been great! It’s a new year and I’m gonna be a new and improved me! By this time next year I will be at my goal weight.  I was watching some Biggest Loser episodes today and was really inspired. To have the body that I dream of: nice legs, arms, stomach…it is so possible! A couple of people lost well over 200 pounds! So I know that I can lose 107…Sometimes we have to silence that voice of doubt and push through until the end. The voice will always be there, but it is our choice to listen to it or not. We have to choose to focus on our attributes to our families, our friends…to the world. What do we believe we are worth? I choose to believe that I am priceless and I deserve to have the best and be the best. My body deserves to enjoy great clothes, compliments, exercise, and healthy food…I’m chosing in 2010 to ignore all doubt, negativity and fear. I have God on my side and with Him ALL things are possible.

Okay so…this is too good to be true! There is no way that I am feeling SATISFIED! I almost feel like I’m not doing this right, but when I do the numbers at the end of the day I have 3 or 4 points to spare…crazy huh? I walked a mile today at a BRISK pace! It felt really good. Tomorrow, I will set another challenge for myself. Not sure what it will be yet. Tonight? Grocery shopping and exercising at the gym followed by a long sit/meditation in the sauna… Hey does anyone have a really good workout routine that will keep me firm and melt away the pounds?

I go to my first Weight Watchers meeting tomorrow. You can’t imagine how happy I am to do this! I have 96 pounds to lose, but I am in anticipation about losing the first 2…I am going to walk slowly into this lifestyle change. I’m going to take some advice and become obsessed with this…in a healthy way of course. I am not afraid anymore. There is so much peace inside of me. I’m in a zone. More to come on my progress…

Buddyslim family,

I am an addict to food and I am having a really hard time with it. I can’ t tell you how bad I would like to lose weight and keep it off. I want to be healthy, strong and confident. Today is not one of my good days. This has been a battle for me since about 4th grade. When I tell my family about my new dreams and desires and plans about losing weight I can see the “yeah right” on their faces. What’s even scarier is that I sometimes feel the same way. Discouragement settles in when I start a new lifestyle change. I think, “am I one of those people who really does this?”…”can I make it until the end?”. Anyway guys…I don’t know…today is not a good one.